1.  Well, it’s definitely not Tuesday!  It’s been a few weeks since I’ve done a ToT though so I figured I’d just throw one together for you guys:)

2.  Some big news, that if you follow me on Facebook or have talked to me in person, you should already be aware of.  But for those of you that solely follow here I wanted to mention that Thomas will be deploying in a few weeks.  This will be his 4th tour overseas and it won’t be his last.  He will be gone for just under 6 months and though I can’t say where he’s going it won’t be to Iraq or Afghanistan this time! 

3.  Since we found out about this deployment MUCH later than we ever did at his last Squadron we didn’t have a lot of time to get used to the idea.  But we sat down and talked about everything and decided that we wanted to try for another baby with the last cycle we had before he left.  If you’re new to the blog you probably don’t know about the struggle we had to get pregnant with Lily.  We tried for just under two years and conceived her on our last cycle before Thomas’ 2nd deployment!  So to say that we are clinging to hope this time is an understatement.  To cut trying down to just one cycle and be serious about our chances is a little silly to most people.  But with everything that we went through last time we know our chances, we know what worked for us in the past and we are no stranger to disappointment.  We have one AMAZING daughter that we were so blessed to be given.  We will never long for a child like we did before.  We decided to try for a second baby but if that isn’t in the cards for this cycle then we will just spend the next 6 months loving the one we have and start trying again when he gets home:)

3.  Being the fertility nerd that I am, I got online the night we talked and ordered an Ovulation Predictor Kit [OPK].  They are little test strips that can detect the hormone that your body releases around Ovulation.  They are amazing.  I have always been a fan.  When you’re trying to get pregnant and month after month you stare down at a stark white space on a home pregnancy test where that second little line would be if you were, in fact pregnant… it is such a positive feeling to look down at these OPKs and see that second line.  Even though they in no way guarantee that you will get pregnant, it’s just like a little positive affirmation for me… They fill me with so much hope. 

4.And this month was no exception:) 
As you can see, each day that I took a test the second line [the one on the left] grew darker and darker asI neared my time of Ovulation. On CD#16 you can see that both lines are of equal darkness… that is a “+ test”. That indicated that I would ovulate in the next 24-48 hours!

5. So, I appologize if this was off-putting to anyone. I am a strong advicate for Fertility Awareness and don’t believe that it is anything that should be shameful or hidden. Thomas and I are both very excited about the prospect of having another little life added to our family. And though there is a wonderful chance that that life is being formed inside of me as I sit here and type all of this out… there is a chance that it isn’t. And so I just ask that you keep us and this dream in your thoughts and prayers over the next week. What’s done is done. There is nothing that we can do to change the outcome now… But positive thinking has never hurt anything;)